Okay I know that writitng is often the result of the living of the author, writer, whatever you want to call them; the storyteller, how about that? Well, that person lives and meets people, experiences things and so on. I am at a point where I just don’t feel like dealing with too many people. Taking someone for fast food and a water with lemon is just not in my budget right now. It’s not to say that I don’t like women,yes we’re talking about them (just as horribly irrational as men), but right now I just want to stick to the ones I’m familiar with and not entertain the new ones. I, and I’m not the only one, tend to evaluate costs and benefits, minus things I do on impulse.
So I meet a person and it may seem good at first, and hell, throughout the conversation and a few conversations after that it may seem good. But once I’ve realized what I was actually doing and what was transpiring, I’ve stopped. Am I a bad guy? Yes, maybe, well, no, in my opinion. I’m my own worst friend that gives a biased opinion. Ha! But consider this. I am not willing to invest in people right now due to the fact that it takes just that, an investment, when you acquire new people into your life. Once you invest, you’re in for a committment. And people are needy, they require your time when they want it! Are you about that life? I’m not sure. that’s for you to decide. I’ve decided I am not about that life right now. I’ll change my status, the grammatically correct written one on my forehead and social security card.
This behavior probably hurts my lifestyle as it relates to writing, but I am a fan of duality and I look at the converse of it. I get the alone time, which I love, to lovingly observe, watch, and survey human behavior to work with my writing. Now of course I do get some of the occasional experiences with friends, or use this and that around me to fuel some gismos together and compound into a story, or whatever, but the investing part for the sake of human interaction, or better yet, a project, is just not for me. Well, unless it’s putting the words together for a new post, like this one, for this project. Maybe I’ll conduct an interview.